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The gifts we want

I remember a Christmas evening when my son was about 6 years old. I found him upstairs alone in his bedroom crying. I couldn’t imagine what he would be crying about. We had had a wonderful Christmas day with lots of presents and relatives visiting and a festive time with food and friends. I picked him up and asked why he was crying. He said “I didn’t get everything on my list.” I remember now the stabbing poignancy of that moment as clearly as if it happened yesterday. He was telling a truth that we all learn. We never get everything on our list. Our wants always exceed what we are given. I rocked with him that night. Just held him and rocked in silence – not trying to convince him of some other truth. I was nearly on the verge of tears myself. How do we walk that fine line between having great desires and not ever getting them all met? It’s true of Christmas presents when we are children, but it’s true of our adult life too.

We never get everything on our list. Such startling news and yet unarguably true. I just came from the funeral of a friend – who undoubtedly, like most of us, wanted to have more life than she got. We don’t get what we want. And even when we are lucky enough to be given the thing we most want – it often turns out that it was not, after all, the holy grail. It did not make our life perfect. What we get is our life. Not getting all that we want forces us to learn to accommodate to being human. Each moment we have to adapt to the truth. We have to change our course, learn a different path, learn to cope with disappointment, learn to be grateful despite our disappointments – to learn to embrace what we do get. We never thought we would have to become different, to learn to live inside limits we don’t choose, to become flexible and to learn the patience necessary to cope with being who we are, living the actual life we have.. To learn to appreciate the beauty of an ordinary human existence.

Writer Roger Housden, notes that “life comes to us out of left field. We are not in charge.” Yet life is , of course, the biggest gift we will ever receive. Out of all the amazing alternative possibilities, we exist. This is the gift we are given. This poem by Rebecca Del Rio addresses this dilemma;

Prescription for the Disillusioned

Come new to this day. Remove the rigid overcoat of experience, the notion of knowing, the beliefs that cloud your vision.

Leave behind the stories of your life. Spit out the sour taste of unmet expectation. Let the stale scent of what-ifs waft back into the swamp of your useless fears.

Arrive curious, without the armor of certainty, the plans and planned results of the life you’ve imagined. Live the life that chooses you, new every breath, every blink of your astonished eyes.


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Mary Alice
Dec 12, 2018

I love the poem. del Rio really "got it!" I remember as a kid being disappointed with whatever it was that I got for Christmas. I didn't really know what I wanted but still there was disappointed that I didn't get this nebulous thing. My family has made a big dent into getting rid of this feeling. Those of us 21 or older draw names and gifts are limited to $25. These days, you can't expect much from $25. We even talk about eliminating all gifts and I'm sure that will happen in the next year or so. Now we take our time, one person opening at a time and the others oohing and aahing and telling stories. It's great!

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Tracey
Dec 12, 2018

Amen, Penny. I love the beauty of the mothering in this. AND I am removing my rigid overcoat as we 'speak'! Happy Holidays, Happy Solstice. xoTracey

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luanneholder
Dec 12, 2018

This is lovely, Penny. You describe a truth that we so need to be reminded of at this time of year.

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